"You're never going to be happy."

I was literally told that by someone..that if I don't start seeing the best in people I will never be happy....unfortunately for this person, I am extremely happy and it's because I see the worst in people that I am. If it weren't for being able to see that most of the people I used to work with were fake to me, it wouldn't have made my transition to PC as easy as it was. I LOVE the people up there...I miss the Schmidt's, Katie, and Sydney...that's it. John is a horrible manager and the only reason people like working for him is because they can walk all over him. What he pulled with me with some day come back to bite him...I just hope someone calls me to inform me of this date.

Anyways-

My NY Resolution is out with the old and in with the new. There are some people who, I'm sorry, I've been fake friends with also and it's time to stop acting like I care. It doesn't do you any more good than it does me. There are also friendships that I've tried desperately to hold onto and it just isn't working anymore. They've showed me that I will always be to blame and they are never wrong..and I can't have that in my life anymore. So, enjoy your life and surrounding yourself with temporary friends...minus the one you will always have basically because she is just an amazing person all around. I just hope you never abuse that friendship and don't take advantage of this person. So, if in the next year you find yourself "deleted" think about it. There's a reason....you know it, and I know it. I can't keep holding onto "high school" friends because we were close once. ALSO people who keep trying to add me when we never even spoke in hs...please stop.

I know this may sound like I'm bitter and an unhappy person but this is truly just my path to full on happiness. I love park city starbucks and enjoy all of my new friends, all of which are real. Especially Mamie...we are two peas in a pod... how we weren't friends before blows me away. I love my job at the pre-school...it's amazing and will only help me open doors when we move on to law school sometime next year.

Anyways-this is my rant for now.

Faithfully

I just finished watching the Glee finale...AMAZING!! This show is honestly the thing that gets me through my days sometimes...today was actually an amazing day, I was in a great mood & was just looking forward to finishing out my shift and making my way to Seattle bright and early tomorrow morning....then, I basically am told to spend my vacation thinking about either transferring or stepping down...hmmm, well transferring will most likely be the answer since I'm not going to work for this company for 7 years and take a pay DECREASE, I already make next to shit....

Anyways-back to Glee, something that makes me SO happy! This show is just an inspiration...I know I'll never really make it onto Glee but I'm just happy that something finally got me so passionate again and I at least tried, I just proud of myself for that. I honestly never expected anything out of it other than the satisfaction of knowing that I went out there and did something for myself...and knowing that I got 376 votes feel amazing...mainly because I know I don't know that many people that would have voted lol. This show deals with real issues and yes, I'm sorry Sue Sylvester, but sometimes singing does help. Sometimes I don't answer my phone when I'm driving because I am just rocking out and it feels amazing! This will be a lonely summer without my Glee but hopefully my DVR will save the day when needed! Finn and Rachel's rendition of Faithfully had me crying my eyes out...especially when Finn tells her he loves her right before!

I'm headed to Seattle tomorrow so I'll try and keep this thing posted buuuuttt hopefully I'll be busy! My little brudder graduates from high school tomorrow and it's a crazy feeling!


-Brittany

Over it.

Have you ever felt like everyone comes to you with problems and complaints about life but the minute you open your mouth you're being "negative" and bringing everyone down? What the fuck is that? Bull shit is what it is. I'm just so over Utah. I feel like I don't realllllyyy have anyone here. The minute I think I have friends poof...I'm replaced by someone better...it's such crap. I try to be part of a trio and the other two start hanging out all the time and i'm left out. I can't find a "best friend" here...it's basically worthless. I have like one friend here who I know that even though I hardly ever see her (we've sucked at these monthly dinners BTW) but I know Mandi would always be there if I needed her...and she's basically the only one I feel that way with. I just feel like I'm done here...my job sucks...my "friends" suck....and I just want to be some where where people are calling me to hang out..or texting me...or anything. God, it doesn't look like shit is getting better in WA either...only 4 people have RSVP'd to my bday party...really?! Wow, that goes to show that all the people that are like "i can't wait until you come back" are just full of it. Why did I even bother planning something?! UGH. I'm so sick of it. I'm really contemplating seeing someone about this....I can't feel like this and it be okay...like, someone who I can talk to who has to listen lol.

UGH. There are probably 2 people who read this lol so sorry Mandi and Lisa for venting and you two having to read it lol.

I'm just over life right now...I want things to be easier. I want to be DONE at starbucks and have a job where people appreciate me....co-workers...boss....and customers alike. I shouldn't go to work in a great mood and leave in a bad one...not THIS often. Maybe 12 days off is just what I need...hopefully. Then I can make it through July and get another month off...then I'll come back after the wedding and get the hell out of dodge....DONE with Starbucks.

Anyways-I'll be home in 5 days...thank god.

I wanna hold 'em like they do...

Hey everyone! I hope everyone's days have been wonderful as mine has been pretty uneventful! Brandon's dad is still on the breathing tube but they hope to get it out tomorrow. If you are interested in further and more thorough updates please visit: caringbridge.org/visit/joenaidu.

Well, although nothing has really gone on today I have enjoyed it, I won't be getting another day off between my two jobs until I go out of town on June 9th, so while I was looking forward to that time, it is EXTRA being looked forward to now!

Sarah and I are trying to plan our party on the 19th and hopefully many familiar faces show up and we have a blast! I can't believe we've been out of high school for 5 years, and my brother graduates from high school in just 13 days!

Well, I'm off to bed, I have an early day tomorrow but hopefully the first half will go by quickly and then I can head to the gym, get a nap in there, and then off to the second job!

ooOooBrittanyooOoo

Gold stars are kind of my thing.

First of all let me say, Brandon's dad is currently in OPEN HEART SURGERY so please, PLEASE, send your prayers and positive thoughts our way!

Second: SPOILER ALERT
if you watch Glee or Biggest Loserand do not want to know what happened tonight DO NOT SCROLL DOWN
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Okay, first of all, AMAZING! A Lady GaGa version of Glee is greatly appreciated and needed! Idina Menzel and Lea Michele's rendition of "Poker Face" was nothing short of phenomenol. It downloaded onto my iPhone last week and I've been listening to it alllll week, but to see how intense they made the duet on the show it blew the song out of this world! Not to mention, "Bad Romance" was fantastic! This show never ceases to amaze me!

Puck never ceases to amaze me with not only his ability to be GORGEOUS but with his ability to show his heart! It's probably good I had to cancel Glee night because I cried....it was so precious & I can't wait to see how Puck, Quinn, and Beth's story lines play out this season! Also, WTF Kurt's dad? I get that Finn was WAY out of line but, c'mon....Kurt is basically trying to gay-up Finn and with a difficult move into your mom's bf's house with the boy from Glee Club who has a crush on you, who FORCES a far too chic room on you...you're allotted ONE flip out ses! I knew I loved this show but it was confirmed when Rachel tells how she got her name! UH HELLO RACHEL'S DADS! I LOVE FRIENDS, good choice boys, gooooooood choice!

Moving on away from Glee! Biggest loser was on tonight and Michael KILLED it. Homeboy lost a whopping 50.11% of his body weight (or something like that, i'm not positive on the .11) he looked amazing and did anyone else notice that him and Ashley are probably doing it? I mean, look at how they look at each other! They are clearly lovin' on one another!

Alrighty guys! I'll be back later tonight or tomorrow with an update about Brandon's dad!!

-Brittany

Just kicked Monday's ass!

Well, today started out as any other day; work 6:45-12:45....but then Blake called and his wife wasn't feeling well and needed her shift covered...so I picked up his close! I got to work 14 hours today 6:45-9:30! It was surprisingly easier than I thought it would be.. it was probably because I worked with my bff Ro today so it's automatically way better.

Anyways-I finished off the day with Alina, Hunter, & Sydney @ my place to watch the Bachelorette. I really like Frank and the big hair guy...he's probably a douche but hey, that's what makes good tv DUH! Anyways-as great as that was, tomorrow is going to be SUPER amazing! Glee-GaGa edition! The Schmidt's, Ross's, and Sydney will be coming over to enjoy and then Katie will be over later to watch some Pratt-Montag craziness on the Hills!

I can't wait to just lounge around and relax tomorrow!

-Brittany

OH ITS A BABY!!

For those of you who don't know, Brandon is an uncle now! Baby Jason was born on May 12th just before 7am! He had a rough ride into life with a fractured skull and had to be kept in the NICU at Primary Children's here in Utah for about a week, but once his jaundis went down and all of his tests were showing normalcy and nothing to worry about he was released and went home! Brandon and I went up to Park City to see him today and he slept almost the WHOLE TIME. Minus a few squeaks (yes squeaks, no screams) and curly toes and stretched out limbs, he slept.....He is just so precious and Brandon finally held him today, finally, without any wires or IV's Brandon was no longer afraid to hold him. *disclaimer* Brandon will claim he was never "afraid" to hold him but...he totally was....Welp, that's all for today, nothing too exciting since I really just worked, saw the baby, and did laundry! Although, next Saturday I get to help Brandon's mom baby-sit Jason and although I hope it will be fun, I'm sure it will just act as extra birth control :)