Faithfully

I just finished watching the Glee finale...AMAZING!! This show is honestly the thing that gets me through my days sometimes...today was actually an amazing day, I was in a great mood & was just looking forward to finishing out my shift and making my way to Seattle bright and early tomorrow morning....then, I basically am told to spend my vacation thinking about either transferring or stepping down...hmmm, well transferring will most likely be the answer since I'm not going to work for this company for 7 years and take a pay DECREASE, I already make next to shit....

Anyways-back to Glee, something that makes me SO happy! This show is just an inspiration...I know I'll never really make it onto Glee but I'm just happy that something finally got me so passionate again and I at least tried, I just proud of myself for that. I honestly never expected anything out of it other than the satisfaction of knowing that I went out there and did something for myself...and knowing that I got 376 votes feel amazing...mainly because I know I don't know that many people that would have voted lol. This show deals with real issues and yes, I'm sorry Sue Sylvester, but sometimes singing does help. Sometimes I don't answer my phone when I'm driving because I am just rocking out and it feels amazing! This will be a lonely summer without my Glee but hopefully my DVR will save the day when needed! Finn and Rachel's rendition of Faithfully had me crying my eyes out...especially when Finn tells her he loves her right before!

I'm headed to Seattle tomorrow so I'll try and keep this thing posted buuuuttt hopefully I'll be busy! My little brudder graduates from high school tomorrow and it's a crazy feeling!


-Brittany

Over it.

Have you ever felt like everyone comes to you with problems and complaints about life but the minute you open your mouth you're being "negative" and bringing everyone down? What the fuck is that? Bull shit is what it is. I'm just so over Utah. I feel like I don't realllllyyy have anyone here. The minute I think I have friends poof...I'm replaced by someone better...it's such crap. I try to be part of a trio and the other two start hanging out all the time and i'm left out. I can't find a "best friend" here...it's basically worthless. I have like one friend here who I know that even though I hardly ever see her (we've sucked at these monthly dinners BTW) but I know Mandi would always be there if I needed her...and she's basically the only one I feel that way with. I just feel like I'm done here...my job sucks...my "friends" suck....and I just want to be some where where people are calling me to hang out..or texting me...or anything. God, it doesn't look like shit is getting better in WA either...only 4 people have RSVP'd to my bday party...really?! Wow, that goes to show that all the people that are like "i can't wait until you come back" are just full of it. Why did I even bother planning something?! UGH. I'm so sick of it. I'm really contemplating seeing someone about this....I can't feel like this and it be okay...like, someone who I can talk to who has to listen lol.

UGH. There are probably 2 people who read this lol so sorry Mandi and Lisa for venting and you two having to read it lol.

I'm just over life right now...I want things to be easier. I want to be DONE at starbucks and have a job where people appreciate me....co-workers...boss....and customers alike. I shouldn't go to work in a great mood and leave in a bad one...not THIS often. Maybe 12 days off is just what I need...hopefully. Then I can make it through July and get another month off...then I'll come back after the wedding and get the hell out of dodge....DONE with Starbucks.

Anyways-I'll be home in 5 days...thank god.